"Progress pictures"

OBVIOUSLY, I NEED TO TONE MY STOMACH, THIS IS TWO WEEKS AGO, TAKEN ABOUT ON THE 5TH OF JANUARY. I AM SICK TO MY STOMACH WHEN I LOOK AT THESE PICTURES, I AM GOING TO BLOW THEM UP AND POST THEM ON THE FRIDGE AND EVERY MIRROR IN MY HOUSE.
CHAD WILL BE POSTING PICS OF HIM SOON AS WELL...



I SWORE TO MYSELF THAT I WOULD NOT PUT THESE UP OF MYSELF, BUT I AM GOING TO DO IT, SO THAT I CAN JUST KNOW THAT YOU ALL ARE LOOKING AT MY FATNESS, THINKING TO YOUSELVES " WOW, I HOPE I DON'T LOOK LIKE THAT." & THAT WILL MOTIVATE ME!!! WAHOO, HERE WE GO. WILL POST MORE IN A MONTH!!! :)

OH, ONE LAST THING; PLEASE LEAVE COMMENTS WITH THOUGHTS, INSPIRATION, THINSPIRATION, TIPS AND OR TRICKS! THANKS EVERYONE!!

VENTING, MUCH?

HEY, its Amberrrr:

I am a train wreck. I have never had so many emotions running through my body all at once. I am just going to bring you up to pace with what has been happening in my life recently, sense I have been slacking on the blog thing.

1)This week I have been retaining water VERY bad, it added a total of 12 pounds water weight on to my already chart topping weight.

2) I have been having a really horrible attitude about working out because of my water retention.. mostly when I hop on the scale and it is up 12 POUNDS sense the day before, and I feel like a freaking BLIMP with all this excess water weight, hell I feel like a blimp before the excess body weight. So imagine my astonishment when I see THAT after I am trying to eat healthy and exercise.

3) I had to get my blood drawn & get an ultrasound on my right leg to rule out possible DVT's (blood clots)/ kidneys failing/ possible reasons my WHOLE BODY is retaining water, much to my amazement, they found nothing. notta. zelch.

4) I had to go buy "grandma socks" aka: Ted hose, or Support hose. That does the self-esteem good, NOT!!!

5) We saw some really not cute girls at the gym today, and I asked Chad, "Do I look like those girls, or do I look better?" and I got the response, "Babe, your skin is so much nicer than theirs..." Which is good, don't get me wrong but now I am all insecure because I am hoping I look better with my ass hanging out of my shorts than those girls did.

ANYWAY, The reason I have said all of that is because, I am trying to train myself to think better. EXAMPLE #1: I can get insecure after what Chad said, or I can buck up, and work harder hoping the next time we see them, he glances at them, and turns to me to say, "Babe, you look SOOO much better than those girls." ORRR I could sit and sulk about it, and get all depressed. EXAMPLE #2: I could look at myself in the mirror with 12 pounds of water weight and cry, and get unmotivated, ORRRR I could work 2X harder, and think of it as a blessing that when those 12 pounds drain out I will be covered in rock hard, head turning, sexy, lean muscle! :)

Yesterday at the gym I worked harder, I had a better attitude and I told myself that I can do anything that I want to, with a little help of a new workout playlist. I told myself that summer is coming up soon and I want to feel great about myself, be in shape and look as good for Chad as he does for me, and guess what?! Tonight at work, I stuck to my diet even though everyone was eating quesadillas and cake and crispy creme doughnuts.... and I bet I feel better than any of them do, so horray for me!! :)

CHAD ROY MEYER:

THANK YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE, WHAT YOU STAND FOR, AND BEING MY MOTIVATION TO BE THE BEST I CAN BE. YOU ARE MY ONE AND ONLY, I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO REPAY YOU FOR THE GOODNESS AND HAPPINESS YOU HAVE SHOWN ME. IN TIME I HOPE TO LOOK AS GOOD FOR YOU AS YOU LOOK FOR ME. THANK YOU FOR ALL OF THE "PEP-TALKS" AT THE GYM, AND MOSTLY LOOKING PAST THIS EXTRA LAYER OF BLUBBER RIGHT TO THE INNER ME.

I PROMISE TO YOU THAT I WILL BE IN BIKINI SHAPE IN THE SUMMER!!!! :)

I LOVE YOU NOW, AND FOR ALL ETERNITY, YOU ARE THE LOVE OF MY LIFEEEE!!! <3333